it might just all be a facade

Friday, September 29, 2006;

♥ 9/29/2006 05:50:00 AM

you give me wings
when i'm falling
yoou lift me up
when i'm down>>

prelims results are almost all back
'cept for physics and compo
and
my results stink

right
it IS so badddd
i mean,
HELLOO?
o lvls are just round the corner
and here i am
getting back results fit for the trashbag.
somebody, kill me.
RAHHHHHHHHHHHH`

ive been tryin hard
yeah, maybe just not hard enough
but at least i do deserve a
' you did your best this time round. try harder the next time'-encouragement!
rather than a straightforward
'you din do your best right. work harder i tell you'-scolding
if this is the best i can give, you cant expect more from me
dammit
everything and everyone is pushin me to my limits.
i feel so stress'd up
~~i warn'd you. dont make me do stuff, like what i did last yr~~
sigh

its a wonder why im still acting cheery and bubbling on the outside
its amazing how freaks like me would even hide in the toilet and cry (HAHA! laugh your butts off)
well. still
its a miracle that god create friends. true friends who will be there for you no matter what.
<33> i thank you, the one above, for those true friends i have
you guys know who you are, and im really really grateful for y'all.
:)
speakin for which
i guess the recess clique will be staying over at my place on next fri and sat to study tgt
THAT IS IF no one ps and nth crops up

no body cares
cos im alone
and the world is
havin more fun than me
tonight;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Wednesday, September 27, 2006;

♥ 9/27/2006 05:39:00 AM

and there's a danger
in loving somebody too much
and its sad when you know its your heart
they cant trust>>

(a) WATCH JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE WITH VAL GRACE YY JOA DES AND DJ (okays these guys were really anit social)
(b) WALK'D SO MUCH TODAY I THINK MY LEGS WOULD JUST FALL OFF
(c) GOT MY MUM THIS NICE LONG SLEEVES TEE FOR HER BDAY! <33>
(d) IM SO NOT FEELING WELL
(e) IM IN LOVE WITH SUBWAY COOKIES!
(f) MANGO STRUDEL TASTES okayyyys
(g) JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE IS ENTERTAINING ALRIGHTS. (at least i din fell alseep!)
(h) RUNNIN A FEVER AT 38.9DEGRESS AND WALKIN DOWN ORCHARD ROAD STREETS IS NO JOKE. ( wow carissa. im hottt hur? :] )

results in tml
(i'll either be crying my heart out
or i'll just keep quiet =\ )
god bless everyone!

baby
youre the one i need tonight;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Tuesday, September 26, 2006;

♥ 9/26/2006 05:23:00 AM

tarzan is handsome
tarzan is strong
he is cute
and his hair is long>>

Let me declare this:
PRELIMINARY EXAMINATIONS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER after 40 more mcqs!
TOMORROW
Classmates and i are going shoppin before meeting the rest of the other classmates to watch JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE
hear it? the shops are calling out for me. so are the threater, the popcorn, the people in orchard
:]

Today's great! :D
with the whole exco gathered together again
presenting a gift to our beloved welfare head
AWHHH. SHO SHWEETT! :]
seriously, shes the only one in the exco who treats us like her babies and made me feel so loved and cared for.
i mean,
who's the one who cares for each and every individual's welfare in the unit and exco?
who's the one who's always there to give you a comforting hug?
who's the one who never fails to put you in front of herself in everything?
who's the one who's forever beside you. keeping you company?
who's the one...
and the list goes on

iloveyou saleha! <33>
and not forgetting
my dearest exco! <33>

yes.
even if youre as act cute as these two guys

KISSES TO YOU DARLING
and SWEET 16! <33>

tags replies;
yuanhaosir> i will! :D and im quite sure hady will win!! :]
yanru> who says! im blogging and updating my blog on MONDAY okay. eat your heart out. :)
cheryl> why u also call me pig! :( and nola. i not lazy! very dilligent!! :D
nick> you bias freakkkk! going everyone's blogs to ask them link you up. but at my blog. you questioned me. UGHH
chanel>chanel destroyed the gift for saleha by doodling on the box. everyone else agrees. you stink chanel.
carissa> now now. BE NICE TO ME! ive got smth to blackmail you now. rmbr? :]]]]

and hady won SI
see people?
i told you so.
:]
-starts screamin and jumpin for joy
=p

when everything falls apart
i just need you to know who i am;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Friday, September 22, 2006;

♥ 9/22/2006 05:09:00 AM

i wish i can hear you say
that you know just how it feels
to have it all
then let it slip away
cant you see
though the moment's gone
im still holding on somehow
wishing i could change
the way the world goes round>>

like what many is saying
WOOHOO! one more prac and 3 more mcqs to go!
:D

anyways, chem prac is horrible
physics prac is horrible
and im sure, bio prac will be horrible too
i mean, how great can things be when youve carissa hong as your lab partner!
yeah, go ahead
share my sorrow.

alright, on a lighter note.
i had so much laughs with retard'd friends like carissa chanel val kong
for example. e convo with carissa!
>
Carissa; 5 messages received. says:
PLS

Carissa; 5 messages received. says:
JUST

Carissa; 5 messages received. says:
UPDATE

Carissa; 5 messages received. says:
STOP

Carissa; 5 messages received. says:
CRAPPING

Carissa; 5 messages received. says:
AND

Carissa; 5 messages received. says:
DIE

Carissa; 5 messages received. says:
I NEED YOUR POST ON YOUR LIFE COS I MISS YOU SO MUCH

*/fangs_ i see a bigger picture_ says:
uhhur. i get it. (:

Carissa; 5 messages received. says:
ILU SHU MUCH

i know im nice and wonderful.
but i din know carissa is that head over heels with me!

and i was studying phy last night while msging
den i began to ask kong this
>
me: hey! y'know. there're faraday's law. lenz's law. why aint there smth call'd fang's law?
kong: haha. dream on ar! why not tmr paper you write down fang's law la!
me: and it will goes like this "fang's law of examination states that students, you can CHEAT. just dont get caught."

tags replies:
yanru> i'll be waiting den! haha. kidding!
yuanhaosir> NO! hady's better!
cheryl> AWHHHH! carissa's so much more retarded okayyyys! :( anyways, look out for the next post cos i'll be mentioning you! <33>
jelin> heaven-ooos! :D
es> hey grandson! looks who's being unfillal! better be nice to me! (: <33>
carissa> hey shit you. go and die (sounds familiar?)

seeing chanel's blog makes me feel like bloggin bout my friends too! :]
and i will do it
so what chanel, sue me lah! =p
szemian
hey pig! this is gonna sound cheesy but seriously. thank you so so so much for always being there for me ever since p6! :] thanks for the encouragement, support, listening ears, helping hands, and everything. y'know, there are times when we felt like, we aint best friends anymore. and we just arent as close as before. but ive gotta tell you this: YOURE THE BESTEST GF ANYONE COULD HAVE. :D now now, aint i a lucky girl! <33>

carissa
NO WAY! of cos i wont write bout you being nice and everything! that will be lies. :D
but on a serious note. i do miss the times when we walk home tgt and the sky always crying over my beauty. hehe. right, thanks for cheering up my mood wityh your ultra lame-ness and crappiness. i mena, with being labelled retarded, i guess you wont be the carissa i know today! <3>

chanel
ive only 2 sentence to say
(i) so i love your ears. wat can u do? SUE ME!
(ii) stop shitting already.

i'll continue the rest on the other post! :D :D :D

i realised ive a book on PUTDOWNS AND INSULTS in my drawer!
carissa and kong wanted to borrow it. but what for? all the insults are already up in their minds!
here's one:
>They put pictures of you on car windows to keep the valuables from being stolen
uhhur. theat's insulting alright.

oh GREAT!
tml's practical
and guess who's my lab partner?
-groans

dont let this be our last goodbye;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Saturday, September 16, 2006;

♥ 9/16/2006 05:57:00 AM

i never have a dream come true
til the day tt ive found you
and even though i pretend tt ive moved on
youll always be my baby
ive never found the word to say
youre the one i think about each day
and i know no matter where life takes me to
a part of me
will always be
with you>>

im determine to blog finishd my post and publish it tonight.
:D so tt my die hard fans, like carissa augustina hong shi hui and chanel lam wei jie, can have a detailed update on my life!

anwyays. PEOPLE! ONE WEEK'S GONE. ONE MORE WEEK TO GO.
hang in there. :D
after prelims, it'll be a SHORT preiod of time to relax and have fun.
after which will be studying again (i hope so)
so yeah. :D :D :D

announcements
(a) jasmine's out of SI
(b) hady and jon is in and staying!
(c) i think jon's cool. hady's cute : ]
(d) i had such a BADDD gastric pain just now in the afternoon! ):
(e) i learnt tt i should be takin ALL breakfast lunch and dinner
(f) i cant be just aking brunch and dinner. ):
(g) my phone bill came. i exceed'd with 700+msges. (and ive a thousand free. omfg)
(h) i realis'd i belong to a diff world from him. =(i) i think my crush is bout to be crush'd
(j) ignore (i). its nonsense
(k) find ms sham with chanel brandon carissa today!
(l) reminds me of the good ol' times. when we've to find them for AOP and stuff :D
(m) hmms. i kinda of fmssrcy
(n) i miss redcross
(o) i misss exco 05-06 <33>
(p) there was a bat in my house on mon
(q) kong said its cool -.-
(r) my convo with joa on mon morning
>me: theres a bat in my house la! ):
>joa: a rat?
>me: BAT!
>joa: hur? rat??
>val: a bat la! walao
>joa: oh. a bat. WHATTTTT a bat?! so cool!
>me and val exchanges glances (silence with joa babbling away)
BUT JOA! its okay. i still love you althoguh u cant do soduko for peanuts. :D
(s) HAPPY BIRTHDAY SELENNNNNNEEE! <33>
(t) HAPPY BIRTHDAY JELINNNN! <33>
(u) kim's tagboard made me so malu. ):
(v) ohoh! i knock'd against the seat in market today la. SO embarrassing okays! RAHH`
(w) and now, there's blueblack on my knee! )):
(y) brandon act'd cute this morning
(x) carissa and i want to hentak on his disgusting bacteria-invested toe
(y) chanels fave statement: GO AND DIE
(z) carissa's fave statement: WENFANG! YOURE SO WONDERFUL

tags replies
cheryl> i wont kill you! you'll bite me rights? hehe
yanru> ahhas. nopes. carissa and chanel are! :D
mich> me? i dunno. anywhere conducive? hehe
yuanhao sir> thanks for your wishes! :D
clara> HELLOOOS! <33>
geraldine> hey you! :D
carissa> carissa eats like, poo and soil. anyways, annonymous sounds so much better than carissa. haha. OOPS! i din know disgusting creatures like you have got eyeballs!
chanel> RALBRALBRALBRALBRALBRALB :)

MIND YOU! those are CAKES btw. : ]
the second cake reminds me of carissa!
and
i want the third one for my brithday! <33>

and i never plan
going on without you;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Sunday, September 10, 2006;

♥ 9/10/2006 01:46:00 PM

hey baby when we're together
doing things that we love
everytime you're near i feel like i'm heaven
feeling high
i don't want to let go, ~~girl~~ guy
i just need you to know, ~~girl~~ guy
i don't want to run away
baby you're the one i need tonight
No promises.
Baby, now i need to hold you tight
i just want to die in your arms>>

i feel like blogging! :D
alrights, so.
prelims is tml.
and i haven finish'd any revision. let alone say, finish'd the whole darn evil book call'd e ten year series.
somebody, shoot me. =\

btw. i finish'd sustaining spore's development and good governance. so i decid'd to take a break
i reach'd out for my diary. =\
so i let those OLD memories became alive once again.
memories of e so-innocent-and-pri-school-like crush.
memories of e really fun sec2life.
memories of the so sweet yet bitter relationship.
memories of.. alomost everything.
and i must say
i felt as though im living in the 'past', when everything seems perfect and complete
=\
and for a few mins of my life, i felt really lost. =X
BUT i pour'd out my thoughts to this consultant of mine. and i felt so so so much better. :D
thank you, FLEA. :D

then again,
life right now seems pretty good! :D
ive supporting friends around me
whacky inertesting and ratarded friends
a consultant who is there to listen to all my rubbish and crap
girlfriends to promised me many many movies and shopping dates
bro who is always there when i wanna make sushi
hmms. :D
right, life is good now, just not prefect

take care everyone!
and all e best to those having prelims!
(PS. chanel, its time to stop missin me so much hur! tell carissa too. :] )

tags replies;
yanru> hahas. if you consider carissa and chanel, then yes. :D
tessa> thanks!
jacq> i wasnt. til you left your tag here. now i AM feeling sad.
carissa> haha. wat joke? YOU? and i din have tuition tt day. it was canceled. lol
chanel> miss'd me too much hur?
jacq> stop sowing discords! cheryl still loves me okayssss! =p youre just jealous tt i decided to stop loving you! ahhaas
cheryl> hahas. welcome darling!
izak> woot! izak. get your arse out of my life. =p KIDDIN! hahahas
jane> HELLOOOS! hmms, nopes! meatballs sounds yummier. :D eyes at chanel

i told ya i have interesting and whacky friends din i?
-laughs at carissa who's still waving her habd frantically at me

i just want you to know;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Thursday, September 07, 2006;

♥ 9/07/2006 05:10:00 AM

i wish i could tell you
im feeling better everyday
and it din hurt me
when you walk away
but to tell you the truth
i still cant find my way>>

~~uhm~~
the song said it all
=\

anyways!
today (compared to the last few days) is fun!! :D :D :D
let see
start'd off the day with a really badddd headache
enter'd the class with my fans screaming my name out loud -stares at chanel and carissa
see? its badddd being so nice and famous and everything (:
hahas. chitchatting with nirma joa val helsa is funn!
and in the background. i can hear someone still franctically shouting my name desperate for MY attention. poor carissa. i hope she isnt down with sorethroat again.
righttt. bio lesson was as usual .. ~~productive!~~. =\
next, its lunch part 1 with nirma yenyee brandon val grace.
hah! some retard'd guy actually wore jacket under tt blazing sun? brandon, get a life
the highlight!
we wanted to stay back and look for ms ong but shes free only at 2?!
haha. so yuliang chanel nirma and i went to drop by the redcross camp. :D :D :D
hahaha. and HUANG YULIANG! I CANT BELIEVE U WENT TO RECEIVE MY MSG. ~~YOU FOOL.~~
WELLLL
its nice seeing the cadets again :D
its nice seeing the VIs and seniors again :D
its nice havin a short chitchat with enshao again :D
hahha. who is still as crappy and lame as ever. who still deserve a kick on his butt. (:

tags replied;
carissa> can i ask for -carissa instead?
cheryl> hahahas! u get it now? love you too!!
leon> NO!!! how many times must i say tt the pointer isnt for you? hahaha. i wanna join y'all for camp! )):
yanru> hahas. both? :D
lalee> hehe! SET!! :D oh, exactly. leon, read her tag! hahahas. i love you! whees!
chanel> IT DROPPED! ask carissa
yuanhao> hahas. okayy
carissa> no way! get a life.

oh yesh. btw. chanel lam got a blog! :D
like finally.
chanel. finally youre in the 21 century. way to go

carissa's irritaing.
here's the evidence:

Carissa; Roses are red, some diamonds are blue. Chilvary's long gone, go with it too. says:
pls post quick ):
Carissa; Roses are red, some diamonds are blue. Chilvary's long gone, go with it too. says:
QUICK
Carissa; Roses are red, some diamonds are blue. Chilvary's long gone, go with it too. says:
KCIUQ

hur hur? :D

all i want to do
is grow old with you;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006;

♥ 9/05/2006 05:34:00 PM

only you can make it right
no im not too proud to say
all i know it im so lost w/o you
im not gonna lie
how m i gonna be strong w/o you
i need you by my side
if you ever say we'll never be tgt
and will end up with goodbye
dunno wat i'll do
so lost w/o you>>

nice song! (:

alrights
i know!! prelims are exactly 5days away and i should be mugging my arse off
(knowing jolly well tt if i dont. i cant forget bout passing prelims)
=\
but i cant really study! ):
instead.
ive been watching XMEN3 for the third time. =\
i am sam, the second time. =\ =\
and over the hedge for the second time. =\ =\ =\
god bless me.

tag replies:
CHERYL> haha. i love you! and ive tag;d your blog. YAYYY!
yuanhao sir> )): hahas. anyways. sir, you gg for the accred camp?
carissa> hey bird! (: and yeah, thanks! asses shan be entertain hur?? hahaha <33
jane> this birdbrain person called carissa augustina hong shihui. and i know youre missin me!! :D :D :D
leon> i'll be droppin by during the camp!!! (i think so) haha. and uhm, next time youre comin my blog. tell me. i change the template. so tt the pointer is gone. (: rofl
chanel> hey! carissa isnt dumb okay. maybe jus retarded and useless. :D

ive great friends.
great consultant-cum-enemy
great besties
great classmates
wat more can i ask for?
:D :D :D

i dont wanna know
if youre cheating me
keep it on the low
cos my heart cant take it anymore;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Friday, September 01, 2006;

♥ 9/01/2006 05:34:00 PM

ohh cos
One, youre like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, ~~girl~~ boy its plain to see
that youre the only one for me
Four, repeat steps One to Three
Five, make you fall in love with me
if ever i believe my work is done
then i start back at one>>

thats SHAYNE WARD'S BACK AT ONE btw
hahas. someone! send me this song!!! =\
lol
anyways anyways
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAYI! :D :D :D
andd
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!! :D :D :D
hahas.
i guess the ones tt really really impact'd my life are ms ng siew cheng! xielaoshi wulaoshi cailaoshi mrkwa mslily mrvincenttan mstai mrglenntan msshamsiah but ofcos! there are so many teachers who impacted my life. and changes me for the better definitely.
thank you tea-cer! (quoted from dj cheong) :D :D

alrights. its been so longgggg since i tag. and everytime i come to my blog to check out the tags, i always see carissa cursing and insulting me.
WALAOOOOOO! ):
hahas. anyways. lets fly back in time!
now, imagine carissa standing up. flapping her wings pretandin to be a bird.
eng oral was okayyyy
since ive got the greatest company while waiting. LOL
val edmund and dj was hiliarious!
edmund and i tryin to predict the oral question. val kept wanting to go toilet. and dj kept sleeping.
so once, val an i ask dj to talk abit 'lousier' (since hes before all of us)
so, it went like this;
val: eh! dj, dont talk so good okays!
me: yeah. talk speak until so good. cos we after you ma
dj: den how i speak?
(silence)
dj: (pretendin to be someone who came fro srilanka) har-low tea-cer. me from si-la-ka
val edmund and i burst out laughin til the examiner look'd up to glared at us. =\
HEY! wats wrong. students have different methods to de-stress one OKAYS.
rofl

and and and. i was almost late on 30/8 okays. ughhh.
and that got me super high during the celebrations. LOL
i love the ppl sitting around me! :D
nirma yenyee joa grace. whees! ((:
den after tt, we went to the staff room to give teachers gifts.
and den, one ~~darn bloody~~ scene jus spoilt my whole day. =\
carissa nirma yx szemian should know this.
ALTHOUGH i dunno wtf makes me feel this. but ughhh. i felt as though my whole day is spoilt la!
walaooooooo
~~shit you~~ =\
hmmms. alrights. i take back my words.

(a) joakim's out of SI! ): stop grinning la, yuanhao sir!
(b) but he's making remarkable improvement rights! :D :D :D
(c) andddd (yuanhao sir, read this ESP) joakim's the cutest of all contestants! jon is definitely dashing --NOT! (:
(d) hady got great voice!
(e) i live paul's performance cos simply, i love the song. rofl
(f) ohoh, i finish'd one set of paper on phy. and i dunno so many ~~shit~~ things la. ):
(g) SIGHHHHHH
(h) mr kwa's damn cool and freaky!
(i) but i still love him. ahhahahas (CHEESYYYYY)
(j) hmms. prelims exactly 10 days away. so, scream your heads off.
(k) those who promised to go shopping with me. PUHLEASEEE do rmbr okays!
(l) my phone bill's so gonna exceed. =\
(m) im neglecting my diary nowadays! cries
(n) ohoh, i wanna get a niec nice diary/book from borders. anyone free? :D
(o) im having tuitions tml! (rofl. how random)
(p) i realised, ive great friends! :D
(q) they always stand by me no matter wat. thank you so so so much, szemian! yenyee! jelin!
(r) i dunno wat to blog le =X

tag replies;
michelle lee> hellooos dearest sunshine. really really?! alrights. lets study tgt with joanne sometimes den! hehe. lets go shopping after my Os okays! :D :D :D
clara> hahas. i saw you on fri night during the musical though! i love you too! <33
yuanhao sir> my EL oral? hahas. i duno eh. =\
xX yanru Xx> ahhas. i dunnno your link!
brandon> WOAHHHH! surprise surprise. and wat la! where got so many crossouts? hahas. thanks for dropping by!
mengg> hahas. i rock! you rock! cheryl rocks! while carissa stones. :D hehe. and u haven send me the pic! lol
cheryl> helloos dear! thanks for droppin by. you made my blog so alive!! haha. oh, u din bite her mehh? but i saw you biting her on wed!! shes crying out in pain but u din care ma. so mean.
carissa> attention seeker! puttin yourself up as anon, tryin to seek attention rights! toot. lol.and yeah, ive updated already. stop nagging la, aunty. :D thanks for leavin your smelly footsteps behind!

you say it best
when you say nth at all;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.